What Does A Healthy Relationship Really Look Like? Part 1

What Does a Healthy Relationship Really Look Like? Part 1

What does a healthy relationship actually look like?

Is it never arguing?

Never getting irritated with each other?

Never hurting each other's feelings?

Never having disagreements?

I don't think so.

I think a healthy relationship is two imperfect people who are willing to keep choosing each other—even when things aren't perfect.

Because let's face it...

Relationships aren't always easy.

There will be disagreements.

There will be bad moods.

There will be financial stress, family problems, work problems, misunderstandings, and days when one person just isn't themselves.

That's life.

The difference is how you treat each other when life gets hard.

In a healthy relationship, you should be able to talk about difficult things without the conversation automatically turning into a disrespectful argument.

You should be able to say:

"That hurt my feelings."

"I'm worried about our finances."

"I'm not comfortable with this."

"I need something from you."

"I'm unhappy about what's happening."

And your partner should be able to listen.

That doesn't mean they have to automatically agree. Listening isn't agreeing.

Sometimes your partner may see things completely differently than you do. That's okay.

You can disagree without belittling each other. You can be frustrated without being disrespectful. You can be angry without trying to hurt each other.

And you should be able to walk away from a difficult conversation knowing that your partner still respects you—even though you didn't see eye to eye.

I've heard the saying, "Happy wife, happy life."

And while it's usually said as a joke, I actually believe there's some truth behind it.

But I'd change it slightly:

Happy partner, happier relationship.

Your partner's happiness should matter to you. Their feelings should matter. Their stress should matter. Their comfort should matter. Their emotional well-being should matter.

And that goes both ways.

If your partner comes home exhausted, you should care. If they're upset, you should want to understand why. If something is bothering them, you shouldn't automatically make it about yourself.

Sometimes they don't need you to fix anything. Sometimes they just need you to listen.

And sometimes, loving someone means noticing the little things. The things that made you fall in love with them in the first place.

Remember the beginning?

The checking in.

The random texts.

The affection.

The compliments.

The little surprises.

Wanting to spend time together.

Wanting to make each other happy.

Making an effort because you genuinely wanted to.

So what happens when the relationship gets comfortable?

Why do we sometimes stop doing the very things that made the relationship feel so good in the beginning?

Getting comfortable shouldn't mean stopping your effort.

You don't have to recreate the honeymoon stage forever. But you should continue showing your partner that they're worth the effort.

Because good relationships don't necessarily stay good by accident. They stay good because both people continue to participate in making them good.

And that's where pride comes in.

Sometimes you have to put your pride aside and really look at yourself. Not just at your partner.

Ask yourself:

What am I doing to them?

How do my words make them feel?

How does my behavior affect them?

Am I listening to understand, or am I just waiting for my turn to respond?

And sometimes, the hardest thing you'll ever have to say is:

"I was wrong."

Not:

"I was wrong, but you..."

Not:

"I'm sorry you feel that way."

Not:

"Well, you did this first."

Just:

"I was wrong. I hurt you. I'm sorry."

That's accountability.

And accountability doesn't make you weak.

It doesn't make you lose an argument.

It doesn't make your partner "win."

It means your relationship is more important to you than your pride.

Because love alone isn't enough.

You can love someone deeply and still hurt them. You can love someone and still make them feel alone. You can love someone and still make them feel unheard. You can love someone and still need to change.

Love is the foundation. But relationships need more than a foundation.

They need communication.

Respect.

Trust.

Honesty.

Boundaries.

Compromise.

Effort.

Accountability.

Affection.

And emotional safety.

A healthy relationship isn't one where two people never hurt each other. It's one where both people care enough to recognize when they've caused hurt and are willing to do something about it.

It's two people who don't just ask, "Do you love me?"

They ask: "Do you feel loved by me?"

And I think that question can change everything.

Because sometimes we love someone exactly the way we know how to love... while completely missing the way they need to be loved.

So maybe a healthy relationship isn't about finding someone who never makes mistakes. Maybe it's about finding someone who is willing to see them, own them, apologize for them, and work on them.

And being willing to do the same.

Because at the end of the day, love isn't just something you feel. Love is something you do.

Until We Speak Again,

A Hopeful Soul

When You Don't Feel Safe Talking To Your Partner

When You Don't Feel Safe Talking to Your Partner

When people hear the words "I don't feel safe talking to my partner," many assume it means physical abuse.

Sometimes it does.

But sometimes...

It means something else entirely.

Sometimes it means you're afraid that every conversation will become an argument.

That every concern will be met with defensiveness.

That your feelings will be dismissed before you've even finished explaining them.

That your words will be interrupted, twisted, or thrown back at you later.

So you stop talking.  

Not because you've stopped caring.  Not because you've run out of things to say.

Because you've started protecting your peace.

You choose silence over another exhausting argument.  You stay in another room.  You wait until they're asleep before you cry.  You tell yourself, "It's not worth bringing up."

Little by little, your home begins to feel less like a place of comfort and more like a place where you're constantly managing conflict before it even starts.

That's a lonely feeling.

Feeling emotionally safe doesn't mean your partner always agrees with you. 

It means you trust that you can bring up difficult subjects without being belittled, mocked, or punished for having feelings.

There should always be a mutual respect, even in disagreements. 

Til We Speak Again, 

A Lonely Soul

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Avoiding Conflicts

Sometimes, avoiding conflict isn't about avoiding the conversation. It's about trying to prevent a conversation from becoming an argument.

Most of us have had moments where something or someone irritated us. Maybe not enough to start a fight, but enough that we needed a little time to process it.

So we stay quiet.

Not because we don't care.

Not because we're giving the silent treatment.

But because we're trying to calm ourselves down before we say something we'll regret.

Unfortunately, some people mistake silence for an invitation.

They keep asking.  They keep pushing.

"What's wrong?"

"Are you mad?"

"Just tell me."

"You're always mad good for no reason."

You politely say, "I don't want to argue."  But they don't stop.

Eventually, they push one button too many.

Then you finally react.

Suddenly, you're the problem.

They remember your reaction...

Not the twenty minutes they spent ignoring your request for space.

Here's My Story

The other day was like any other day. Only this time, my partner wanted me to bring him some goodies, to his job, to share with his coworkers. 

I was slightly irritated, but let it go. It was just one time, right? 

We talked, later that night, about the amount of goodies we were going through a week and how much it was costing us. 

We were going to slow down. Or so I thought. 

I even said "don't make this a regular thing." 

We were trying to save money for things needed around the house and other things. 

A second car. Furniture. Clothes. Knick snacks. A possible vacation.

The next day, same thing. 

So, I took him some goodies anyways.

I didn't want to argue about it, with him being at work. But when I arrived, he saw that I was not happy about this. 

We had just discussed this, t he night before.

And when I voiced that to him, he said something along the lines of "I didn't say that. I don't mind how much we go through." 

He twists things to fit his narrative or what he wants to do. 

Then later, when I picked him up from work, he notices that I'm still irritated over the issue. 

But I was quiet. And instead of just giving me space, he starts an argument about it.  

Even when I said we need it for bills, he said I was supposed to take care of it. But how can I when he's spending more than the norm?

But even when I told him multiple times that I don't wanna agrue, he keeps going.

Of course, that pissed me off more. 

And instead of trying to understand what I was telling him...that bills and house should be top priority...he expects me to handle all the bills with the limited money he gives me, along with our habits. 

That's not right.

Granted, he recently got a new job that pays more. But, we can't save money if he's spending more than normal.

Why am I so mad over something this small?

From the outside, it probably seems like I'm upset over goodies. 

I'm not. 

I'm upset because we made a plan together, and it felt like that plan no longer mattered. I'm upset because our priorities suddenly changed without a conversation. And I'm upset because instead of trying to understand why I was frustrated, the focus became my reaction instead of the reason behind it. 

Sometimes the argument isn't really about what's on the surface.

It's about feeling unheard.

It's about broken agreements.

It's about respect.

It's about wanting your partner to stop long enough to ask, 'Help me understand.'

Conflict isn't always unavoidable.

Sometimes it's created by refusing to listen when someone is asking for peace.

Until We Speak Again, 

A Exhausted Soul

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It's Okay to Choose Yourself Sometimes

It's Okay to Choose Yourself Sometimes

Are you the person who always puts everyone else first?

The one who makes sure everyone is okay before checking on yourself?

The one who says yes when you really want to say no?

The one who takes care of everyone else's needs while quietly putting your own on the back burner?

If you are, I want you to hear something:

It's okay to choose yourself sometimes.

Taking care of yourself doesn't make you

 selfish. 

It doesn't mean you don't love your family.

It doesn't mean you don't care about your partner, your children, your friends, or the people who depend on you.

It means you're human. And humans need care too.

We spend so much time making sure everyone else is happy that sometimes we forget to ask ourselves a simple question:

"What would make me happy?"

Maybe it's getting your hair or nails done.

Maybe it's trying a new hobby.

Maybe it's going to your favorite restaurant and ordering exactly what you want.

Maybe it's starting that little house project you've been thinking about.

Maybe it's taking the scenic route home just because you want to enjoy the view.

Maybe it's sitting somewhere quiet with a cup of coffee and doing absolutely nothing.

It doesn't have to be expensive. 

Sometimes self-care can be five minutes. Ten minutes. An hour. Or maybe, if you're fortunate enough to have the time, an entire day.

The amount of time isn't what matters.

Taking the time matters.

And sometimes self-care means saying no.

No, I don't want to go.

No, I don't have the energy today.

No, I can't take that on right now.

No, I need some time for myself.

And you don't always have to feel guilty for it.

You are allowed to have limits.

You are allowed to rest.

You are allowed to protect your peace.

You are allowed to do something simply because it brings you joy.

Mental health matters.

Your emotional well-being matters.

And constantly ignoring your own needs doesn't make you a better person. Sometimes it just leaves you exhausted, resentful, overwhelmed, and emotionally drained.

How can you constantly make everyone else happy when you're miserable inside?

How can you keep pouring into everyone else when your own cup is empty?

You can't always give from an empty place. That's why taking care of yourself isn't selfish.

It's maintenance.

Just like a car needs fuel to keep running, we need time to recharge too.

And sometimes we need more than a few minutes.

Sometimes we need to step away from everything.

Put the phone down.

Stop answering messages.

Stop solving everyone else's problems.

Stop worrying about what everyone needs from you.

And simply breathe.

Give yourself permission to exist without having to accomplish something.

You don't have to earn rest.

You don't have to earn happiness.

You don't have to wait until everyone else is okay before you're allowed to be okay.

And here's something else I've learned:

You shouldn't have to completely lose yourself trying to make other people happy.

The people who love you should want you to be happy too.

They should want you to have hobbies.

They should want you to have friends.

They should want you to have quiet time.

They should want you to laugh.

They should want you to have something that's just yours.

Because your happiness shouldn't be a threat to the people around you. It should be something they celebrate with you.

So if you've been putting yourself last for a long time, maybe it's time to move yourself a little closer to the front of the line. Not because everyone else suddenly matters less.

But because you matter too.

Take the drive.

Try the hobby.

Order the dessert.

Get your hair done.

Start the project.

Sit quietly with your coffee.

Say no when you need to.

Say yes to something that makes you happy.

Take five minutes. Take an hour. Take a day.

Whatever you need.

Because taking care of yourself isn't selfish.

Sometimes it's the most loving thing you can do—not only for yourself, but for the people you love.

A happier, healthier you has more of yourself to give. And maybe that's the real point of self-care.

It's not about putting yourself above everyone else. It's about remembering that you belong on your own list, too.

Until We Speak Again,

A Nurturing Soul

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Random Thoughts - Freestyle #1

How can someone idolize a genuinely good person... and still be so negative and disrespectful?

Why do bad things always seem to happen to good people?

Why are the kindest people so often the ones who are mistreated? Being kind doesn't make us doormats.

Why does everyone notice your anger or your depression... but not what caused it?

Why kick someone when they're already down?

Why do people give advice they can't even follow themselves?

Why do people, driving cars with dented back bumpers, keep trying to squeeze into impossible spaces in traffic? (I know... completely random. But I think it every time I see it.)

People wonder why you don't open up.

But when you finally trust someone enough to tell them how you feel... and they throw your words back in your face...

That's why.

How can I not relive the pain of past relationships when my current partner repeats the same behaviors that hurt me before?

How can someone say, "I love you," while treating your feelings like they don't matter?

Is it worth staying?

Will they change?

Or is loving someone sometimes not enough?

Just...

Random thoughts.

Untl We Speak Again, 

A Wondering Soul

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Sacrifice vs. Compromise?

Sacrifice vs. Compromise: What's the Difference?

Relationships require both.

But sacrifice and compromise aren't the same thing.

We sometimes use the words interchangeably, as if they're simply two different ways of saying, "I gave something up for my relationship."

They're not.

Sacrifice is giving something up.

Compromise is finding a middle ground.

For example, imagine someone wants to finish college, but their partner has a career that allows them to comfortably support the household. They decide together that one person will put their education on hold to become a stay-at-home parent or spouse.

That's a sacrifice.

They're giving up something they wanted in order to prioritize something else.

Maybe someone gives up a hobby or habit because the household needs to save money.

That's also a sacrifice.

They're choosing to completely give something up.

But compromise is different.

Imagine you want star-gazer lilies at your wedding. You love them, but real flowers are expensive. Instead of giving up on having them altogether, you agree to use artificial star-gazer lilies.

You still get the flowers you wanted.

Your partner gets a more affordable option.

Neither person completely loses.

That's compromise.

And I think that's an important part of relationships that sometimes gets overlooked.

Compromise doesn't necessarily mean that both people get exactly what they originally wanted. It means both people are willing to adjust something so that both people can still have a voice in the outcome.

Maybe you want to go to one restaurant and your partner wants another.

You alternate.

Maybe one person wants to spend the weekend at home while the other wants to go out.

You spend Friday night at home and Saturday night out.

Maybe one person wants to take an expensive vacation while the other wants to save money.

You find a less expensive destination.

That's compromise.

But here's where I think things can become unhealthy:

When sacrifice only goes one way.

If one partner is constantly giving up their wants, dreams, hobbies, money, time, or opportunities while the other partner rarely gives anything up, that's not a balanced relationship.

And constantly saying, "I sacrifice so much for you," doesn't automatically make someone a good partner either.

Sacrifice should be appreciated. It shouldn't become ammunition.

Your partner shouldn't constantly remind you of everything they've given up as a way to control what you do.

And compromise shouldn't mean:

"You give in, and I get my way."

That's not compromise.

That's one person getting what they want while the other person learns to accept it.

A healthy relationship needs both.

There will be times when one person makes a sacrifice for the relationship. There will be other times when the other person does.

And there will be plenty of situations where neither person has to completely give something up because they can find a middle ground.

That's the beauty of compromise.

Sacrifice says, "I'm willing to give this up for us."

Compromise says, "Let's find a way for both of us to be okay with this."

And sometimes love means sacrifice.

Sometimes love means compromise.

But love should never mean that one person is always sacrificing while the other person is always taking.

Because eventually, the person doing all the sacrificing may look around and realize something:

They didn't compromise their life.

They gave it up.

And that's a very different thing.

Until We Speak Again,

A Reflective Soul

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When Everything Becomes About Them

When Everything Becomes About Them

There are some people who leave you feeling lighter after every conversation.

And then there are people who leave you questioning your own reality.

Whether it's a friendship, a romantic relationship, a family member, or a boss, living with someone who consistently displays narcissistic behaviors can be emotionally exhausting.

At first, they can be incredibly charming.

Confident.  Funny.  Charismatic.  They know exactly what to say to draw people in.

But over time, something begins to change.

You notice that your feelings rarely seem to matter. Your accomplishments become their accomplishments. Your struggles somehow become an inconvenience to them. Your opinions are dismissed unless they agree with them.

One of the hardest things to understand is that every conflict somehow becomes your fault.

You tell them something they said hurt your feelings.  Instead of apologizing, they explain why you shouldn't feel that way.  Or they tell you you're too sensitive.  Or they remind you of something you did six months ago.

Before you know it, you're apologizing for bringing up the issue in the first place.

Some people call this gaslighting.

Whatever label you use, the result is often the same.

You begin questioning yourself. You replay conversations in your head. You wonder if you're overreacting. You start believing your feelings need permission before they can exist.

Another painful pattern is that they often focus on your reaction while ignoring what caused it.

They'll remember the moment you raised your voice. But they won't acknowledge the weeks or months of disrespect that led to your frustration.

They'll call you emotional. But not ask why you became emotional.

They'll paint themselves as the victim while leaving out the parts of the story where their own words or actions contributed to the situation.

And that's incredibly confusing for the person on the receiving end.

Because you're not asking for perfection. You're asking for accountability.

Relationships of any kind require two people who are willing to reflect on themselves.

To admit mistakes. To apologize. To grow.

When one person refuses to acknowledge their own role in conflict, the relationship slowly becomes one-sided.

You find yourself carrying the emotional weight for both people.

Eventually, you become exhausted.  Not because you don't care.  But because you're the only one trying.

I've learned that one of the healthiest questions you can ask yourself isn't:

"How do I make them understand me?"

It's:

"Do they genuinely want to understand me?"

There's a difference.

You cannot force someone to take accountability.  You cannot love someone into changing.  You cannot communicate enough for two people.

The healthiest relationships—whether they're with a partner, a friend, a family member, or a coworker—are built on mutual respect.  Mutual accountability.  Mutual empathy.

Because relationships aren't meant to be competitions about who's right.  They're meant to be partnerships where both people care enough to ask one simple question:

"How did my actions affect you?"

If that question is never asked...

The relationship slowly stops feeling like love, friendship, or teamwork.

It starts feeling like survival.

And no relationship should leave you constantly questioning your worth, your memory, or your voice.

Healthy relationships don't require you to become smaller so someone else can feel bigger.

They make room for both people to be seen, heard, and respected.

Until We Speak Again, 

A Neglected Soul

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When Home Doesn't Feel Like Home

When Home Doesn't Feel Like Home

There is a strange kind of loneliness that happens when you're not actually alone.

It's being in your own house and still feeling unwanted.

It's sharing a bed—or a home—with someone you love, while feeling like your presence doesn't really matter to them.

It's becoming quiet because every time you open your mouth, you already know you're probably going to be met with defensiveness, disrespect, or an argument.

And eventually, you stop talking.

Not because you don't have anything to say.

Because you've said it so many times that you're exhausted from repeating yourself.

I feel unheard in my own house.

I feel alone.

I feel unwanted.

I feel disrespected almost every time I try to bring something to my partner. I've been told, verbally, that my feelings don't matter.

And when the person you love tells you that they don't care how you feel, something inside you changes.

You start wondering...

Why am I still trying so hard to be heard by someone who has told me they don't care?

I've waited for apologies that never came.

I've waited for accountability.

I've waited for him to recognize what his words and actions have done to me.

I've waited for him to see the connection between the way he treats me and the way I've changed because of it.

Then there are the moments after we argue and separate ourselves. 

I'm in another room, trying to process everything that just happened, while I can hear him on the phone with his friends—laughing, joking, talking like everything is perfectly fine.

Sometimes he'll have music playing so loudly that it sounds like there's a party happening on the other side of the wall.

And I sit there listening.

Wondering how someone can seem so much happier when I'm not around.

Maybe that's not how he feels. Maybe he's just distracting himself. Maybe he's genuinely fine while I'm sitting there falling apart.

But that's what it feels like from my side of the wall.

It makes me wonder if my absence brings him more peace than my presence does.

And then, sometimes, after all the arguing and distance, he'll suddenly want sex.

That's another part I struggle to understand.

How can we go from barely speaking, hurting each other, and feeling completely disconnected...to suddenly being expected to be intimate?

I don't want to feel wanted only when my body is wanted.

I want to feel wanted when I'm sitting beside him.

I want to feel wanted when I'm talking.

I want to feel wanted when I'm upset.

I want to feel wanted when sex isn't involved at all.

I don't want to be someone he reaches for when he wants sex and retreats from when he wants peace.

I want to feel like my presence is something he actually wants.

And I'm starting to wonder if I'm going to be waiting forever.

I've had multiple people tell me to leave.

And maybe that's one of the hardest things to admit.

I love this man.

I have loved him enough to tolerate disrespect for more than a year while hoping things would change.

Hoping he'd finally understand. Hoping he'd look at me and realize that I'm not asking for perfection.

I'm asking for the basics.

Love.

Respect.

Honesty.

Accountability.

Effort.

Emotional safety.

That's it.

I don't need a perfect relationship.

I don't need someone who never makes mistakes. 

I need someone who cares when they hurt me.

Someone who can listen when I'm trying to explain why something hurt.

Someone who can say, "I was wrong. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to make you feel this way. Let's figure this out."

Someone who doesn't make me feel like having feelings is an inconvenience.

Instead, I've found myself distancing myself.

Staying in another room.

Keeping my thoughts to myself.

Living in an "out of sight, out of mind" relationship while still sharing the same house.

And that's a terrible way to live with someone you love.

At some point, I started realizing just how deeply this was affecting me. I became so overwhelmed and so emotionally broken by feeling unworthy of the love I was asking for that I became suicidal.

That's a sentence I never wanted to write.

But it's my truth.

And I'm not saying it to make anyone feel guilty.

I'm saying it because this is what feeling emotionally abandoned can do to someone.

When someone repeatedly feels unheard, unwanted, dismissed, and disrespected, eventually they may start believing that they are the problem.

Maybe I'm too sensitive.

Maybe I'm asking for too much.

Maybe I should stop bringing things up.

Maybe I should just accept things the way they are.

Maybe I'm not worth the kind of love I'm asking for.

But I am.

I am worth it.

And so are you.

I've spent so much time hoping that if I loved him enough, communicated enough, explained myself enough, or waited long enough, something would finally click.

Maybe he'd see me. Really see me.

See the woman sitting in another room because she doesn't feel safe enough to talk.

See the tears.

See the loneliness.

See the person who isn't asking him to be perfect—just asking him to care.

And now, because direct communication has become so difficult, I've found myself using social media and text messages as some of the last ways I know how to communicate what I'm feeling.

Maybe he'll read my words differently than he hears them.

Maybe he'll finally understand.

Maybe he'll finally see what I've been trying to say all along.

Or maybe he won't.

And that's the part I'm struggling with.

Because how long can you keep explaining your pain to someone who doesn't seem willing to understand it?

How long can you wait for an apology?

How long can you love someone while slowly losing yourself trying to make the relationship work?

I don't have all the answers.

I'm still here.

I'm still hurting.

I'm still trying to figure out what comes next.

But I'm beginning to understand something:

Love isn't supposed to require me to abandon myself just to keep it.

I shouldn't have to become silent to keep the peace.

I shouldn't have to hide in another room to feel comfortable in my own home.

I shouldn't have to beg to be heard.

I shouldn't have to prove that my feelings matter.

And I shouldn't have to become someone else just to receive the simple love I've been asking for.

Maybe love isn't always enough.

Maybe sometimes you can love someone with your entire soul and still recognize that the way you're being treated is hurting you.

Maybe sometimes the hardest thing isn't leaving someone you don't love anymore.

Maybe it's figuring out what to do when you still love them—but you don't love who you are becoming beside them.

Until We Speak Again,

A Tired Soul

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The Apology That Never Comes

The Apology That Never Comes

Have you ever waited for an apology that you knew you deserved?

Not because you wanted to win an argument.

Not because you wanted someone to admit they were wrong just so you could say, "I told you so."

You wanted an apology because someone hurt you.

You wanted them to recognize it.

You wanted them to look at you and say, "I understand what I did, and I'm sorry I hurt you."

But what happens when that apology never comes?

What happens when, instead of apologizing, they start digging through the past looking for something you've done wrong?

Suddenly, the conversation isn't about what they did anymore.

Now you're defending yourself. Your mistakes are being brought up. Old arguments are being resurrected. Things you've already apologized for are being used as ammunition.

And somehow, the person who hurt you has managed to turn themselves into the victim.

I've learned that sometimes people don't apologize because they don't believe they did anything wrong. Sometimes they know they were wrong, but their pride won't allow them to admit it. Sometimes they give you a technical acknowledgment instead.

"You were right. I was wrong. It won't happen again."

But somehow, that still doesn't feel like an apology.

Maybe because an apology isn't just admitting who was right and who was wrong.

An apology is recognizing the hurt you caused.

There's a difference between:

"You were right and I was wrong."

and

"I was wrong for the way I treated you. I understand that my words and actions hurt you, and I'm genuinely sorry."

One acknowledges the argument. The other acknowledges the person.

And sometimes, you can wait a very long time for the second one.

You might even start questioning yourself.

Am I asking for too much?

Should I just let it go?

Maybe I'm being stubborn.

Maybe I should apologize first just to make peace.

But there's something I've had to remind myself:

Wanting an apology doesn't make you petty.

Sometimes you aren't asking for an apology because you need to hear the word sorry.

You're asking because you need to know that the person who hurt you sees what they did.

You need accountability.

You need acknowledgment.

You need to know that your pain mattered.

And if you're constantly receiving less than you deserve, eventually you have to stop asking yourself how to get someone to give you more.

You have to ask yourself:

How long am I willing to accept less?

Because you can't force someone to feel remorse. You can't force someone to understand your pain. You can't force someone to take accountability. And you certainly can't force someone to apologize sincerely.

At some point, you have to stop waiting for the apology and start deciding what you are going to do with the hurt that remains.

Maybe that means setting a boundary.

Maybe it means having one final conversation.

Maybe it means stepping back.

Maybe it means reevaluating the relationship entirely.

Whatever you decide, don't let someone else's refusal to apologize convince you that what happened wasn't important.

Your hurt doesn't become invalid because someone refuses to acknowledge causing it.

And you don't have to keep begging someone to give you the bare minimum of accountability.

Sometimes the apology never comes.

And as painful as that can be, healing may eventually mean accepting that you deserved an apology from someone who simply wasn't willing to give you one.

That's not the same as saying what they did was okay.

It's saying:

"I can acknowledge what happened even if you won't."

And maybe that's where you finally stop waiting.

Until We Speak Again, 

A Tired Soul

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What Partners Should Be Able To Talk About

What Partners Should Be Able to Talk About

One of the biggest misconceptions about healthy relationships is that they don't argue.

I don't believe that's true.

I believe healthy relationships are built on the ability to talk about difficult things without turning every conversation into a conflict.

There are certain conversations every couple will eventually have.

Some are exciting.  Some are uncomfortable.  Some are emotional.

But every one of them matters.

You should be able to tell your partner when your feelings are hurt without being told you're "too sensitive."

You should be able to discuss finances without it becoming a battle over who's right and who's wrong.

You should be able to talk about where you want to live, how you want to spend your money, and what your future looks like together.

You should be able to discuss children—whether they're yours together, from previous relationships, or whether you want children at all.

You should be able to talk about boundaries.

About intimacy.

About trust.

About mental health.

About work stress.

About family.

About dreams.

About fears.

About mistakes.

About expectations.

Even about the uncomfortable subjects that neither of you wants to bring up.

Because avoiding difficult conversations doesn't make problems disappear.  It usually gives them room to grow.

One thing I've learned is that the topic itself is rarely the real problem.  It's how the conversation is handled.

If every disagreement turns into yelling...

If every concern is dismissed...

If every difficult conversation ends with someone shutting down...

Eventually, one person stops talking altogether.

Not because they have nothing to say.

Because they no longer believe it's safe to say it.

And that's heartbreaking.

A relationship should be the one place where you feel safe enough to say:

"Can we talk about something?"

Without immediately worrying about an argument.

That doesn't mean you'll always agree.  No two people agree on everything.

Healthy communication isn't measured by how often you agree.  It's measured by whether both people feel respected even when they don't.

Sometimes your partner won't like what you have to say.  Sometimes you won't like what they have to say.

That's okay.

Listening isn't the same as agreeing.

Respect isn't the same as surrendering.

Love isn't the absence of difficult conversations.

It's choosing to have those conversations with kindness, honesty, and a genuine desire to understand one another.

Because the strongest couples aren't the ones who never have uncomfortable discussions.

They're the ones who know they can bring up anything without fearing that the conversation itself will damage the relationship.

If you can't talk about your feelings...

Your finances...

Your future...

Or your fears...

Then maybe the problem isn't the topic.

Maybe the problem is that somewhere along the way, communication stopped feeling safe.

And every healthy relationship deserves a safe place to talk.

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A Tired Soul

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Finding The Spark Again

Finding the Spark Again

Every relationship begins with a spark.

It's exciting.

You can't wait to see each other.  Every text message makes you smile.  You stay up talking until two in the morning.  You hold hands everywhere you go.

You flirt.  You laugh.  You make each other feel like the only two people in the world.

Then life happens.

Work gets busy.  Bills pile up.  Children are born.  Stress increases.  Responsibilities replace spontaneity. Disagreements become more frequent.

Some arguments are resolved.  Others quietly settle into resentment. 

Without realizing it, the relationship begins to change.  

The dates become less frequent.  The compliments become less common.  The hugs become shorter.  The conversations become about schedules, groceries, and bills instead of dreams, laughter, and each other.

Sometimes this happens after years together.

Sometimes it happens after moving in together.  Sometimes it even happens after the engagement ring goes on or the wedding is over.

The effort that once came so naturally slowly fades.

Not because the love disappeared.  But because life became louder than the relationship.

People often say, "The spark is gone."

But I don't think the spark simply disappears.

I think it gets buried.  Buried beneath stress.  Buried beneath routine.  Buried beneath disappointment.  Buried beneath all the little hurts that were never fully healed.

The good news?

If something can be buried... It can also be uncovered.

Finding the spark again rarely starts with grand romantic gestures.

It starts with the little things.

Looking up from your phone when your partner is talking.

Asking, "How was your day?"

Holding their hand for no reason.

Laughing together again.

Planning a date instead of waiting for one to happen.

Saying,

"Thank you."

"I'm proud of you."

"I appreciate you."

"I love you."

Not because it's expected... Because it's true.

Sometimes finding the spark again also means having uncomfortable conversations.  Talking about the resentment you've both been carrying.

Owning your mistakes.  Listening without interrupting.  Choosing understanding over winning.  Forgiving where forgiveness is possible.  Healing what can still be healed.

One thing I've learned is that love isn't something you find once and then never have to care for again.

Love is a fire.

And like any fire, it needs attention.  Ignore it long enough, and the flames begin to fade.

Feed it with kindness, affection, laughter, communication, and intentional effort...

And it begins to burn brightly again.

Maybe not exactly the way it did in the beginning.  Maybe even better.

Because now it's not fueled by butterflies and excitement.  It's fueled by commitment.  By choosing one another, over and over again.

The spark isn't always found by looking backward at who you used to be.  Sometimes it's found by deciding who you want to become together.

Because the strongest relationships aren't the ones that never lose their spark.  They're the ones where two people are willing to search for it together.

Until We Speak Again,

A Patient Soul

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The Keys To Every Relationship

The Keys to Every Relationship

When people hear the word "relationship," they often think of a husband, wife, boyfriend, or girlfriend. But relationships are so much more than romance.

Relationships exist between parents and children, friends, coworkers, business partners, teammates, alliance members, and even neighbors. 

Any time two or more people interact regularly, a relationship exists.

And while every relationship is different, the strongest ones all share the same foundation.

Communication

Communication is the bridge that connects people.

Without communication, assumptions take over. Feelings get hurt. Problems grow larger than they need to be.

Communication isn't just talking. It's listening. It's understanding. It's being willing to have uncomfortable conversations before they become major issues.

Most relationships don't fail because people disagree. They fail because people stop communicating.

Trust

Trust is the glue that holds relationships together.

Without trust, every action becomes questionable. Every decision becomes suspicious. Every misunderstanding becomes a potential conflict.

Trust takes time to build but only moments to destroy.

Whether it's trusting your spouse to remain faithful, trusting a coworker to do their job, or trusting an alliance member to support the team, trust creates stability.

Respect

Respect means valuing another person's thoughts, feelings, boundaries, and individuality.

You don't have to agree with someone to respect them.

Respect means treating people with dignity even when you're frustrated, angry, or disappointed.

When respect disappears, relationships become battles instead of partnerships.

Boundaries

Many people misunderstand boundaries.

Boundaries are not walls built to keep people out. They are guidelines that help relationships remain healthy.

Boundaries define what is acceptable and what is not.

They protect emotional well-being, personal space, time, and individual needs.

Healthy boundaries prevent resentment from growing and allow people to maintain their identity within the relationship.

Compromise

No relationship survives without compromise.

Two people will never agree on everything. Neither will groups of people.

Compromise isn't about winning or losing. It's about finding solutions that allow everyone to move forward together.

Sometimes you give a little. Sometimes they give a little.

The goal isn't getting your way every time. The goal is preserving the relationship while solving the problem.

The Most Important Part

What makes all of these things work is that they must go both ways.

Communication must be mutual.

Trust must be earned and maintained by everyone involved.

Respect cannot be demanded while refusing to give it.

Boundaries must be honored on both sides.

Compromise requires effort from everyone.

A one-sided relationship eventually becomes a burden rather than a partnership.

The healthiest relationships are not built by one person doing all the work. They are built by people who choose, every day, to communicate, trust, respect, honor boundaries, and compromise together.

Whether it's a marriage, friendship, business partnership, coworker relationship, or alliance, the formula remains the same.

Strong relationships aren't found.

They're built.

Until We Speak Again,

An Honest Soul

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Communication Goes Both Ways

Communication Goes Both Ways

Communication.

It's one of the most commonly used words when people talk about relationships.

"We just need to communicate better."

"They have poor communication."

"Communication is key."

But what does that actually mean?

Most people think communication means talking.  

I disagree.  

Talking is only half of communication. The other half is listening.

Not waiting for your turn to speak. Not interrupting.  Not thinking about your rebuttal while the other person is still talking.

Actually listening.

Trying to understand where they're coming from, even if you don't agree.

Communication exists in every relationship we have.

Marriages.

Dating relationships.

Friendships.

Families.

Coworkers.

Business partners.

Even complete strangers.

Without communication, misunderstandings become assumptions.  Assumptions become resentment.  And resentment slowly drives people apart.

One of the biggest mistakes people make is believing that being heard is the same as being understood.

They're not.

You can hear every word your partner says and still completely miss what they're trying to tell you.

Sometimes people aren't asking you to fix anything.  They're asking you to understand.

Sometimes they're not looking for advice.

They're looking for empathy.

Sometimes they don't need an answer. They just need to know that their thoughts and feelings matter.

Listening doesn't always mean agreeing.  You can completely disagree with someone's opinion while still respecting their right to have it.

You can acknowledge someone's feelings without believing they're entirely right or wrong.  

Because feelings aren't debates to be won.  They're experiences to be understood.

Healthy communication also requires honesty.  That means saying the difficult things instead of allowing resentment to build.  It means asking questions instead of making assumptions.

It means admitting when you're wrong.  And it means being willing to apologize when you've hurt someone.

Communication isn't always comfortable.

Some of the most important conversations you'll ever have are the ones you'd rather avoid.  But avoiding them doesn't make the problem disappear.  It usually makes it bigger.

One thing I've learned is that communication is less about finding the perfect words and more about creating a safe place where both people feel heard.  Where neither person is afraid to speak.  Where both people can be vulnerable without worrying they'll be dismissed, interrupted, or ridiculed.

Because when one person always talks and the other person slowly stops speaking...

That's no longer communication.

That's a monologue.

Real communication is an exchange.  It's two people sharing.  Two people listening.  Two people learning.  Two people growing.

It goes both ways.

And when both people genuinely communicate—not just with their mouths, but with their ears and their hearts—relationships become stronger because both people know one simple truth:

"My voice matters here."

In my opinion, that's one of the greatest gifts you can give another person.

Until We Speak Again, 

An Understanding Soul

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A Mother's Love

A Mother's Love

People often mistake a mother's rules for control, her worry for nagging, and her advice for criticism. What they don't always see is the love behind it all.

As mothers, we spend years protecting our children from scraped knees, broken hearts, bad decisions, and sometimes even themselves. We guide, teach, warn, and encourage. 

Not because we want to control their lives, but because we want them to have better lives than we did.

There are times when our children don't understand our choices. They may think we're being too strict, too involved, or too cautious. They may roll their eyes at our advice or become frustrated when we won't simply tell them what they want to hear. 

But every decision we make comes from a place of love.

A mother's love isn't measured by how often she says yes. Sometimes it's measured by the difficult no's.

It's staying awake at night worrying about them when they don't even know you're awake. It's carrying burdens for them that they'll never see. It's making sacrifices without expecting recognition. It's wanting the very best for them, even when they believe they know better.

The truth is, a mother's love doesn't disappear when she's angry.

There will be arguments. There will be disappointments. There will be moments when tempers flare and words are spoken out of frustration. 

But even in those moments, the love remains. 

A mother can be upset with her child and still love them with every piece of her heart. She can be disappointed in their choices and still stand ready to help them when they fall.

That love doesn't come with conditions.

It doesn't say, "I'll love you if you listen to me," or "I'll love you if you make me proud." It says, "I love you because you're mine."

Whether you're succeeding or struggling.

Whether we're laughing or arguing.

Whether you're near or far.

My love remains.

One day, you may understand why I worried so much. You may understand why I asked questions, gave advice, and tried so hard to guide you. One day, you may realize that every lecture, every warning, every difficult conversation was rooted in love.

Until then, know this:

Everything I've ever wanted for you was happiness, safety, and a future brighter than my own.

You may not always understand my ways, but they have always come from the same place—

A mother's love.

Until We Speak Again, 

A Loving Soul

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A Mother's Pain

A Mother's Pain

People often think that once your child becomes an adult, the worrying stops.

It doesn't.  If anything, it just changes.

When they're little, you worry about scraped knees, fevers, and whether they'll make friends at school.

When they're grown, you worry about things you can no longer protect them from.

A couple nights ago, my son called me after an incident at work. There had been an altercation with another employee. 

No punches were thrown. No physical fight broke out. 

My son did what I wish more people would do in heated situations—he walked away.  He went outside to calm down.

But the situation didn't end there.

The employee called her boyfriend, and according to what was reported, he came looking for my son and threatened to shoot him.  

Thankfully, another employee prevented my son from going back inside. 

The police were called, and no one was hurt.

For that, I am grateful.

But the fear didn't leave when the danger did.  That's the part people don't talk about.

The event ends.  The worry stays.

You replay the situation over and over in your head.  You imagine what could have happened.  You think about how differently the story could have ended.

And then your mind starts asking questions you don't want to answer.

What if he had gone back inside?

What if the other employee hadn't stopped him?

What if the police had arrived too late?

As parents, our minds are experts at creating "what ifs."  And sometimes those "what ifs" hurt more than reality itself.

What makes this situation even harder is knowing the employee still works there.

Maybe nothing will happen.  I sincerely hope nothing does. 

But fear doesn't operate on facts alone.  Fear operates on possibilities.

And when someone threatens your child, even your grown child, those possibilities become impossible to ignore.

People say that children grow up.  They move out.  They build their own lives.  They become independent.

All of that is true.

But no matter how old they get, they never stop being your baby.  You never stop wanting to protect them.  You never stop worrying about them.  You never stop feeling their pain.

That's the burden and the blessing of being a mother.  

A piece of your heart walks around outside your body every day.  And when that piece of your heart is threatened, scared, or hurt, you feel it too.

Maybe that's what motherhood really is.

Loving someone so deeply that their safety becomes tied to your peace of mind.  And sometimes, carrying fears that they may never fully understand.

I don't know what happens next.  I don't know if this situation is truly over.  I only know that tonight I'll probably check my phone a few extra times.  I'll probably worry more than I should.  And I'll definitely thank the heavens that my son came home safely.

Because sometimes a mother's greatest relief is simply hearing the words:

"I'm home."

Until We Speak Again, 

A Worried Soul

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The Little Things Matter

The Little Things Matter

When people think about love, they often think about the big things.

The vacations. The gifts. The anniversaries. The grand romantic gestures we see in movies.

But in my experience, relationships aren't built on the big things. 

They're built on the little things. The everyday things. The things that seem so small that we often don't think twice about them.

Things like:

"How was your day?"

"How are you feeling today?"

"I'm going to the store. Do you need anything?"

"Drive safe."

"Text me when you get there."

"Did you eat today?"

Those may seem like simple questions. But they're not really questions. 

They're expressions of care. They're little reminders that someone is thinking about you. That someone notices you. That someone values your well-being.

Sometimes love looks less like roses and candlelight and more like bringing your partner a blanket because you noticed they're cold. 

Sometimes it's making them a sandwich because you know they get busy and forget to eat. 

Sometimes it's filling up their gas tank.

Sometimes it's sending a quick text just to let them know they're on your mind.

The little things say:

"I see you."

"I care about you."

"You matter to me."

And the beautiful thing is that they don't cost much. Most of them are free. They only require effort and intention.

Unfortunately, the opposite is true, too.

When the little things disappear, people notice. Not immediately. But over time.

The "How was your day?" becomes silence.

The good morning texts stop.

The check-ins become less frequent.

The thoughtfulness fades.

And eventually one partner starts feeling invisible. Not because they're unloved.

But because they no longer feel loved.

There's a difference.

Love is a feeling.

Feeling loved is an experience.

And often, it's the little things that create that experience. 

At the end of the day, I don't think most people remember every gift they've ever received. 

But they remember who showed up.

Who listened. Who checked on them. Who made them feel important. Who made them feel loved.

The little things matter.

Until We Speak Again,

An Observant Soul

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Consideration

I think one of the most overlooked qualities in a relationship is consideration.

People talk about love. They talk about trust.

They talk about communication. But consideration is rarely mentioned, even though it's woven into all three.

So what is consideration?

To me, consideration is taking your partner's feelings, needs, limitations, and circumstances into account before making a decision or taking an action.

It's asking yourself:

"How will this affect the person I love?"

And sometimes, the smallest acts of consideration can make the biggest difference.

It's keeping the house quiet when your partner is sleeping because you know they had a long day. It's understanding that their need for rest is just as important as your desire to be awake.

It's discussing major purchases before spending large amounts of money.

Not because you need permission, but because you're a team. Your decisions affect each other.

It's not pressuring your partner to do things they're unable to do—whether physically, emotionally, financially, or mentally.

It's respecting their limitations without making them feel guilty for having them.

It's avoiding topics you know will upset them unnecessarily. 

It's paying attention when they tell you something hurts them. It's remembering what they've shared and using that information to care for them better.

Consideration says:

"I hear you."

"I see you."

"You matter to me."

The opposite of consideration isn't necessarily cruelty. 

Sometimes it's simply thoughtlessness. Sometimes people become so focused on their own wants, needs, and interests that they forget to consider how their actions affect the person standing beside them.

And that's where problems begin.

Because when someone repeatedly feels unconsidered, they begin to feel unimportant.

They begin to feel unheard. They begin to feel like their comfort, opinions, and feelings rank lower on the priority list. 

Over time, resentment starts to grow. Not because of one major event. But because of hundreds of small moments.

The loud television while they're trying to sleep. The purchase they weren't consulted about. The interrupted conversations. The repeated disregard for something they've clearly expressed.

Each moment may seem insignificant by itself. But together, they send a message.

And that message is:

"What matters to you doesn't matter as much to me."

That's a painful message to receive from someone you love.

The truth is, consideration isn't difficult.

It doesn't cost money. It doesn't require special skills.

It simply requires awareness. It requires slowing down long enough to think about another person's experience.

And honestly, I think that's one of the purest expressions of love.

Not flowers.

Not gifts.

Not fancy dates.

Just consistently showing your partner that their feelings matter.

Because when two people actively consider one another, they create something beautiful:

A relationship where both people feel valued.

A relationship where both people feel respected. A relationship where both people feel loved.

And at the end of the day, isn't that what we're all looking for? 

Until We Speak Again, 

A Thoughtful Soul

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Gaslighting

When You Start Questioning Your Own Reality

One of the most damaging things a person can experience in a relationship isn't yelling.

It isn't cheating. It isn't even the arguments.

It's being made to question your own reality.

That's gaslighting.

Gaslighting happens when someone repeatedly dismisses, minimizes, denies, or twists your experiences until you begin doubting yourself.

At first, it's subtle.

You bring up something that hurt your feelings. They tell you it never happened. Or they say you're remembering it wrong. Or maybe they tell you you're being too sensitive.

You let it go.

But then it happens again. And again. And again.

Eventually, something strange starts happening.

You stop trusting yourself. You begin second-guessing your memory.

You replay conversations in your head over and over trying to figure out whether you misunderstood something. You wonder if you're overreacting. You wonder if you're the problem. You wonder if you're crazy.

The worst part is that gaslighting doesn't usually destroy your confidence overnight.

It happens slowly. One doubt at a time. One dismissed feeling at a time. One rewritten conversation at a time. 

Until eventually you find yourself apologizing for things you didn't do. Explaining feelings you shouldn't have to justify. And questioning things you were once certain of.

I've learned that one of the biggest signs of gaslighting isn't confusion about the other person. It's confusion about yourself.

When you find yourself constantly thinking:

"Maybe I'm imagining things."

"Maybe it wasn't that bad."

"Maybe I'm too emotional."

"Maybe I'm the problem."

That's when it's time to stop and pay attention.

Healthy relationships don't make you question your sanity. Healthy relationships don't require you to constantly defend your emotions. Healthy relationships don't punish you for having feelings.

That doesn't mean your partner will always agree with you. They won't. And that's okay.

Disagreements are normal. Different perspectives are normal.

But there's a difference between disagreeing with someone's feelings and convincing them they shouldn't have those feelings at all.

One is communication. The other is manipulation.

The sad thing about gaslighting is that many people don't realize it's happening until they've already lost confidence in themselves.

They've spent so much time seeking validation from someone else that they've forgotten how to trust their own instincts. Their own memories. Their own emotions. Their own voice.

If any of this sounds familiar, I want you to remember something:

Your feelings are real. Your experiences matter. Your perspective deserves to be heard. And just because someone refuses to acknowledge your reality doesn't mean your reality isn't true.

One of the most important lessons I've learned is this:

Trust yourself.

Not every feeling is a fact.

Not every memory is perfect.

But if someone consistently makes you feel like your thoughts, feelings, and experiences don't matter, the problem may not be your perception.

The problem may be the way you're being treated.

And nobody deserves to live in a relationship where they have to constantly question their own reality.

Until We Speak Again,

A Confused Soul

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Wanted VS Needed

Being Wanted VS Being Needed

I’ve been thinking a lot about the difference between being needed and being wanted.

People act like they’re the same thing, like they both mean you matter to someone. But they don’t feel the same at all.

Being needed feels like responsibility. Like someone depends on you to hold something together—emotionally, financially, or just to function in their life. And at first, that can feel like love. Like purpose. Like you finally have a place where you matter.

But I’ve noticed something about “being needed.” It’s conditional. It depends on what you provide. What you fix. What you carry for someone else.

And when that need starts to fade… sometimes the connection fades with it.

Being wanted feels different. It’s quieter, but more real in a way I can’t ignore. It’s not about survival or filling a gap. It’s about someone choosing you when they don’t have to. Not because you’re solving a problem in their life, but because they actually want you.

Even then, I know nothing is permanent. People change. Feelings shift. That’s just life. But I think there’s something more honest about being wanted. It doesn’t trap you in a role.

It just lets you exist as yourself—and still be chosen.

And I think that’s what I’ve been trying to understand lately. What it really means to be loved in a way that doesn’t feel like obligation.

Until We Speak Again,

A Disposable Soul

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What I Need When I Go Quiet

What I Need When I Go Quiet

When I go quiet because I feel like my words don’t matter, what I need most is not to push me further into silence. 

When I go quiet, it means I’m overwhelmed—not absent.

And in those moments, what I need most isn’t pressure. It isn’t repetition. It isn’t frustration from the other person because I’m not responding the way they expect.

What I need is understanding. 

I need them to notice that something shifted in me—and care enough to pause, not escalate. I need them to understand that when I stop talking, it isn’t because I ran out of things to say. 

It’s because I don’t feel safe saying them in that moment. I need them to understand that silence isn’t defiance—it’s self-protection.

First, I need space.

Not the kind of space that feels like punishment or silence used as a weapon—but space that feels safe. 

Space that says, “I’m here when you’re ready.” Space that doesn’t demand immediate answers from a mind that’s still trying to settle.

I need them to stop and ask their self, “Did I just make her feel unheard?” instead of assuming I’m just being distant or dramatic.

I need them to give me the benefit of the doubt, not the assumption of wrongdoing.

I also need calm.

Raised voices, intensity, or pushing for a response while I’m already overwhelmed only makes it harder for me to come back into the conversation. 

It doesn’t help me open up—it makes me shut down further.

I need them to soften their tone instead of raising it. I need them to slow down instead of speeding up the conversation like we’re trying to win something. I need them to recognize that when I feel dismissed, I don’t just shut down the argument—I shut down emotionally.

I need them to say things like, “I hear you,” even if you don’t fully understand yet.

What helps most is patience.

Knowing that I don’t have to explain everything in the heat of the moment. Knowing that the conversation doesn’t have to be forced out of me before I’m ready.

Because I will come back. I always do.

I just need time to process what I’m feeling without being judged for it. I need reassurance, too.

Not pressure like “you need to talk right now,” but gentle reminders like, “We can talk when you’re ready,” or “I’m here when you want to explain.” 

That kind of response doesn’t make me feel trapped. It makes me feel safe enough to eventually open back up.

And when I do come back, I need listening. 

Not interruptions. Not corrections in the middle of my thoughts. Not the conversation being redirected away from what I’m trying to express.

Just listening.

Because part of why I go quiet in the first place is because I don’t always feel heard when I speak.

I don’t need perfection from the people I love. 

I just need emotional safety. 

I need to know that my silence won’t be used against me later.  That my triggers won’t be dismissed.  That my need to step back doesn’t make me difficult or less worthy of being understood.

I need them to reassure me that my feelings matter, even when we don’t agree. And most importantly, I need them to care more about connection than being right in that moment.

Because when I go quiet, I’m not leaving the relationship. I’m waiting for it to feel safe enough for me to come back into it.

Until We Speak Again,

A Quiet Soul

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